July 8, 2005 ( ll )

Here is our latest deal................Glenda got released from the hospital around 9:30 this morning. Her mother and I were there to help her escape. She is now laying down trying for a nap because she didn't sleep well last night. The lady she roomed with talked in her sleep all night and the nurses kept coming in every hour or so to take her vitals and to withdraw some blood. They came in around 9:00 to collect a little more and Glenda refused them by stating she was going to be discharged pretty quick. Of course she was correct.

She feels fine and she looks great! No one could ever believe that such a terrible life threatening strain of cancerous stuff, http://www.cancer.gov/cancerinfo/pdq/treatment/adult-soft-tissue-sarcoma/patient/ is in the growth on the inner side of her leg just below the right knee. The now schedule is for a doctor's appointment on Tuesday the 12th where we should learn most of what we need to know. If the two liver lesions are benign, as thought at this time, an operation will happen on Thursday the 14th taking the thing from her leg again and a couple or three lymph nodes from the right side of her groin area. I think that after that it may be a few more days before we have any for sure idea as to whether next step will be a dancing one or a step toward the Anderson Cancer Hospital in Houston, Texas. I'm not much of a dancer but I'll damn sure be able to jiggle around on the dance floor if Glenda wants to.

The fact is, at this time we have no idea what is next. The liver test results will tell us a lot but I doubt we'll know anything about that till Tuesday. If the lesions are benign and are of this or that they will just leave them. If they are benign and something else this or that they may want to remove them later. Either way the leg and lymph node operation will go on Thursday. If they go against all the doctors opinions and are malignant a completely whole new process will take place and we have no idea what those options might be.

We're just enjoying our days as much as we can as we try to leave as many what ifs and I wonders out of our thoughts. If anything I believe, as Glenda does, that this will pass and we both will be a more aware and more compassionate person because of it. Who knows, some folks might even begin to like me a little too.

Remember that what you believe will depend very much on what you are.~Noah Porter