September 12

This morning, I have to go along with my poor typing skills, nothing to type again. Isn't life grand! I've been told, "No news is good news" a lot of times, so believing that, you can believe all be good here. Here's some more commas,,,,,,if I missed a place where one should have been, stick it in for me. If I put a few where they needn't go, just ignore em please. If I ever go to school again I'll study a lot more than I did the first time through.

I'll never forget our high school counselor taking Gary and I into a small very hot closet type room for a talk. The part that I remember as much as the heat was the red headed guy telling us how much smarter Gary was than I. I had to blink a couple times pretty hard because most of my grades were better than Gary's but I held my tongue. He proceeded to tell us how Gary, different than I, applied himself and worked for his grades while I just scooted through.

Well, he was right! Gary was much smarter than I. He worked or pleased the red headed guy enough that with his help, Gary was able to go to college on a scholarship. It took him a few extra years because of his need to earn a living at the same time. I guess he picked up some good work habits during that period too, at least as I remember it he had none back when we were home. Anyway the learned work habits and his ability to apply himself turned him into a very successful business owner. Unfortunately he was called to bigger and better things before he really reached his prime. I sure do miss him, my other beloved brother Bert and all those who have already checked out.

I don't know how I got into such a mess! Now I'm struggling to stay positive. Memories flooding back have a tendency to pull out huge clumps of sadness, which on a subject like this, is nothing more than extreme selfishness.

I quit!

However, "Those who do not know how to weep with their whole heart don't know how to laugh either". ~Golda Meir